The wonderful wandering life of of an American Mommy living in Paris trying to get fit and enjoy life!
Everything changed so much just a few days ago. I know that I need to find some sort of outlet or support group. But I have given myself a month to be super upset and angry about it all and then I have to pick up my bootstraps and move on. I can already see myself getting a bit better. Yesterday Twitch and I went for our first run together since my first fall in January. It was SO hard and so amazing. I was most surprised by the fact that I came home and crashed for almost 2 hour nap. That is probably something I just have to get used to. But I want to take control of my life and make positive steps. My hope and plan is that we will start running MWF and get back into shape a bit. I know once my body learns how to move again and my head is a bit more on straight the weight will start to come off. We arent huge junkfood eaters. We just need to start going more often to the market and gorging ourselves on apples and oranges.
We can do this. It will be OK.
I always mean to get better about writing and then I do not. Hmm…So its been a crazy couple of months. It seems like we just have not stopped moving since Pessach. Between the holiday, me getting sick, my sister coming and us spending 2.5 months in the States only to come back straight into Rosh Hashana my head is still spinning.
I know that things are still a bit up in the air neurologically but I still miss running. Its been almost a year since I started and like 8 months since I have run. Amazing how something can take hold so quickly.
Now that The Partner is back at work I am thinking of starting to go when French Fry is in school. That will give me a little leeway as the times alternate each day. I need to start small since we still dont really know what is going on with those darned pesky lesions in my spinal column. Heres hoping its nothing..you know cause it could be nothing. right…?
Yesterday was my first day back at Couch 2 10K and running. I know it was super slow and I had to take it really easy but it felt so good to get back.
Today I went to the gym and did 6.3k on the stationary bike and 3k walking on the treadmill. My leg is totally dead. I have no control over it. And this stinks. I am not sure what to do to make it better. DP is really gonna freak about it.
Happy Purim to everyone !
I walked for the first time in 6+ weeks outside the house without my brace today. At first it was wonderful. Within 10 minutes it hurt a bunch. I tried to work through it but man wow it was not great. I know it is gonna take time. It is frustrating though because I guess somewhere in the back of my head I thought it was going to be easy to bounce back. I know i know slow and steady wins the race.
On the weightless front I was at my weekly appointment and it turns out that last week my stomach was a whopping 108centimeters and this week it is 103. I do not know if I have lost a gram but that is some pretty good loss and I hope to keep up the momentum.
Valentine’s Day was all right. Darling Dearest got me a book I had been eyeing; The Historical Atlas of Judaism. Love it!
Allright all of you out there running run well and all of you working on weight remember slow and steady wins the long race.
So the results of the MRI are in and nothing is torn or out of place. I do however have an adema (sp?) in my knee/leg. This means two more weeks of the brace and another month of no exercise. I also have an appointment next week with a rheumatologist to try and get to the bottom of why I fell in the first place. The ortho thinks it is either muscular or compression syndrome. Here’s hoping it is just some muscle weakness. Because I made the mistake of asking Mr. Internet about the compression business and it seems pretty serious and not fun at all. I just want to be able to play with my son who is growing and changing so much while i just sit here on the couch :(. I just want to be able to put my hot pink shoes on and grind some pavement.
Went to the Ortho this morning to check out all my “gifts” from my fall. My elbow is fine, my palm is 100% healed, and my knee is a heaping painful pile of moose poop. Not only have I only just (after 15 days) started to form a scab it still comes off with any moisture. There is a pretty decent dent in my knee from the depth of the scrapes/burns. That folks is the good news. I am stuck in knee brace prison for at least another two weeks. I have an MRI scheduled for next wednesday and a follow up the week after that. He is suspecting a torn meniscus. I am hoping not.
So on the ironic side of things he gave me a bit of a talking to. Once I told him that I was a former intensive contact sport athlete he talked about my already fatigued knee. He then went on to tell me the best way to help it is to lose weight. THANKYOUVERYMUCH. How did I hurt it? Running. Why was I running? To try and lose weight. I am already down 2.change kilos since the new year. And I am still breastfeeding my 15month old.
Needless to say I am a bit down about everything right now. I know it is something I will bounce back from soon. But I just feel crummy about having worked so hard for two months for nothing. I will have to start again from scratch once this whole dabbocle is sorted.
I wanna not hurt and run run and get skinny :(
It has been 11 days since “the fall”. I have not been able to do anything. I feel like I am going mad. Not only that but I feel like I am just blowing up. Doctors appointment on Thursday to decide if I need an MRI
4 Flippin days! That’s is how far I made it into 2012 with all my goals intact. I was only 2 kilometers from my weekly goal (which as a newbie is a measly 16k) and thunk! Suddenly on the 5th Anniversary of me arriving in France I am surrounded by French Fireman because I have attempted to completely meld my body with the pavement. Of course since I have cement like bones I did not break anything (Thank G-d). But I have roadburn so bad it makes motorcycle drivers wince. The Docs even went so far as to classifly my knee as “unsuturable”.
I am in a bit of shock. I am not even so sure what was different about this run but I managed in 45 minutes to go 5.2kilometers!!! I am so proud of myself. 35 minutes of running without stopping no matter how slow I felt like I was going :). Not a bad way to start 2012
So today I rocked out 4 kilometers in 40minutes. I would have gone just a bit longer but I seem to have something up with my leg. I have noticed that as I get further into this running thing when my body starts to get tired my left leg actually turns to lead. The weird thing about it is that I can feel is but it is almost like my brain is not sure there is even a leg. I felt like a bit of a fool because the main reason I had to stop was because I was actually tripping over my leg. Even on my way home from the gym I was having trouble walking as my leg was just uncooperative. I am not sure at all what is going on. But I will keep going and hope that it just kinda sorts itself out.
I have also signed up for both a mileage club and a weight loss club online in the RW forums. I hope that it helps me to find a bit of support with my goals. While I know I can accomplish them on my own it will be nice to have the attaboys out there.
take care and happy safe new year to all of you!